music and lyrics

today me, cam and devi (my la-las: cam says in china in means lesbian partners) and akua and carol made it to the new cinema in exeter, vue, to catch a movie.

i realised ive never watched a movie with my la-las before so this is a first. heh, virgin experience with them. it occured to me to be wierd cos we are so close and do almost everything together, spend most our time with one another and never been to the movies. so we decided to go.

music and lyrics is a romantic comedy therefore we were in agreement for it.

has hugh grant singing and dancing retro so i like it. haha his retro hairstyle and dance moves remind me a little bit of f4 (haha my disgraceful past infatuation of the taiwanese boy band that i shared together with angie, meelin, fiona, magdalene- haha we go down together girls). dao ming si in particular for the hair. haha anyway tho i have no feelings for f4 now, i wonder if i will still reminisce the past like those mature (or should i just say old) woman ga-gaing over alex-fletcher, the has-been singer (hugh grant) of boyband, pop, in the 1980s. maybe not f4 but aniki jin or takuya kimura, would still stand a chance.

anyway i like the song 'way back into love'- nice.... hehe i always fall for these pop, catchy love songs... hmm.. (so i went to go downl**d and have it playing now and starts thinking that the one sung by hugh grant n drew barrymore in the movie is much cleaner and likes it better so went to search for it and youtube came up)

and so now im thinking about what else i wanted to blog about-

thinking..

thinking....

i give up, u know u have all these stuff u want to blog and its gone.

so here are the lovely lyrics and song-

http://youtube.com/watch?v=dU_TmsQvz0Y

I've been living with a shadow overhead
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed
I've been lonely for so long
Trapped in the past, I just can't seem to move on

I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
Just in case I ever need em again someday
I've been setting aside time
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind
All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
Oh oh oh

I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine
I've been searching but I just don't see the signs
I know that it's out there
There's got to be something for my soul somewhere

I've been looking for someone to shed some light
Not just somebody just to get me through the night
I could use some direction
And I'm open to your suggestions

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart again
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end

There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart to you
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do
And I you help me to start again
You know that I'll be there for you in the end

i dedicate this song to wai min- i love you babe and i know :)

you know you are getting old when you start talking about your future. you know you are a woman getting old when you start talking about future husbands. you know you are a mature woman getting old when you talk about future husbands and money and house and wedding. you know you are getting godamn old when you worry about not having a steady boyfriend at 22, as time would fly by so quickly and then you are 27, 28, 29-- (dont mention it...) 30! omg

haha anyway 3 girls sat in a room talking about our current love lives and beaus and imagining the future, near future? wedding, honeymoon, house and contraception? the wonders you get to when 3 girls, or should i say women, get together. we talked, chatted, thought and chatted somemore until our housemate told us to lower it down at 2am.

i really love my girls, and will miss these girl talk sessions. and i hope that in the future we will still miss each other and be in contact. and i also hope we will be with the partners that we are with now. because, each of us know each other's partner all too well now. we know them like we've always known them. and one day, in the (near) future, i hope that we can triple date? or just let the boys meet the girls. sigh, will it happen? i hope it does, to fulfill the dreams of 3 maturing girls...
hehe its quite nice that each of us understands one another, to the emotions that one has for our partners. to the physical desires and the long distance aches. its so nice to have company in close friends. who feel what u feel, think what u think. put us 3 together and its still bliss.

on another note, cam and i went for a 'picture'-resque walk around exeter as the sun's up for a long time! join me in my sunny exeter walk! hehe,

ps: omg i thought uploading pics are easy but they r not in order! boohoo, i cant be bothered to make it in order haha but these are the unordered shots!

dinner @ firestone

i jus realised how easy it is to post pictures so im going to put pictures up more now! yay! haha tonight we decided to go out for dinner at the firestone bar and restaurant. it serves good food for reasonably reasonable prices. i miss a good steak so i ordered rump steak, cam had lamb shank and devi and raj had fish&chips and sweet chilli chicken. we also had some dessert to end the night. a nice chit-chat night, where we exchange alot of inneundos. haha raj can officially join the club of 'dirty' talk. hehe, pictures!!

im so lucky

to have someone love me. for who i am. i know i need to learn to trust, and i will one day. for now, let me be happy...

im happy, happy, happy

today..

i finally started back on my proj. ive had a long hiatus/break fm it since like 2 weeks, its time to get back in action.

today i also had my first tiring jog of the year. with raj as the pusher. he will push me to jog a few more meters when i'm really out of breath n wheezing. im so damn unfit im telling you.

today is also the day i did my first sit-ups and leg lifts of the year. haha 2007. anyway i have to do some kinda exercise before more flab piles on.... and on.. and on!

haha and today is the first time akua and carol has ever been to our house. and of cos they loved it. everyone loves our house! and im sure our parents would too when they come for graduation!

its so nice to have a girls get together. but im telling you time is never enough for us. and today i oso realised love is universal. and so are relationships. between boy and girl, of every race or nationality. you see, some of you might not know but akua is from ghana and carol, zimbabwe. and akua has a bf and she tells us the same problems anyone in any relationship faces. of course there are slight culture differences, like how most men would not allow their women dancing sexy moves with another guy. but for the blacks, they dont mind as long as its not too way over the top. but for me it does seem provocative enough, so i asked akua. and she says its fine. so i concluded that rnb is black music and they invented the moves. its the americans that commercialised it and make it sexy n provocative in a bad way.

so thats all for today, been updating regularly and am proud of myself! haha but i dont think most of my frens are still reading my blog. but its ok, then it becomes more private and more private stuffs get revealed! hehe, love all

jan xxx

the pursuit of happiness

its post valentines day and on reflection, i had one of my most heart-wrenching moments ever. i think- since i always have them.

haha im a cry baby and everyone knows that. my whole house knows it now cos i always have these big woohoo cries that they say sound like a female ghost..

anyway don u think its wierd that someone can make u fly to the moon, leave u on cloud nine or have that love is empowering feeling. and that same person can also bring u to the depths of hell, tear up your heart and leave it bleeding and sore in pain?

its like a pursuit of happiness. my pursuit of happiness i guess.

and i also realised friends are indeed always on your side. always. all the time. so remember to turn to them anytime. when u need a hug or a 'i love you'.

janice found more love for cam and brandonboyd today.

somethings are meant to happen at that moment i guess.

i appreciate everything, devi's assuring smile, cam's at first awkward hug, raj's corniness and lb's persistence. i guess somethings never change, for now at least.

oh well guys, i love you all.

and family- father, mother i love you.

on a related note, i not stupid 2 is such a brilliant movie, one of singapore's best film, i personally think. love the theatrics and irony and singapore humour. love it love it love it.

if u get a chance, watch it once and again!

on the ending note, janice had a happy valentine's day spent with loved ones. thank you all for it -kiss-

valentines day post

guess wat, the surprise of the century i had a hand in!

devi's bf flew all the way from singapore, without her knowing it, came in the afternoon, waited till 12 midnight UK time and went on his knees outside our house. how sweet sweet sweet is that?

sigh this is like the sweetest thing ive ever heard, dont think anyone's love story can beat that now. haha and then he'll be wrecking his brains for his marriage proposal huh. but it's all so sweeet and i helped in hiding this all from devi, picking him up, bringing him to get the flowers and then hiding in my room till the times here.

alright enough of envy

and my val's day message to all,

I LOVE YOU!!!

XOXO jan

busy bee

im so stressed now

all on my own doing as usual. i had a whole week to do my reading and prepare for my presentation but i didnt do it till today and tmr morn is my next class. godammit.

i feel like ive got so many things on my mind! so many things to do and so many things to settle. ugh

anyway i wanted to blog abt Maha's birthday dinner.
it was a nice restaurant we went to and i had some really yummy lamb shank that won the approval of my girls as they r very particular abt meat smells. as for me it doesnt matter as long as its tender! haha

anyway it was great to have dinner out together and also meet akua, carol and neka! we've been wanting to meet up since last oct but never got round to doing it so it was good being able to meet everyone! hehe

it was a lovely dinner and we had a lot of great catching up that we did. talking abt whos with who, who's gonna get married and flying to ghana! its amazing eh to have frens fly in fm across the world to your wedding. how cool is that. i just hope we still keep in touch and i still get a wedding invite. if any of u don invite me ill just self invite haha. i will be there girls i will be.

its so wierd that wedding plans are actually being talked abt now it just goes to show how godamn old we're are and fast getting :( bleaurgh ill always be young! haha

haha anyway, maha looked gorgeous and she's just so pretty we all agreed. haha all my girls were all so pretty too! ok pics up as soon as i get them :)

ok gotta go back to some reading before my gp kills me if i dun carry my own weight! (no freakin' pun intended!)

love.

pictures are up!

i spent the whole of this night putting up all the pics that i owe my other frens. to share my holidays!! i realised i havent updated in AGES!!! hahah

ok some im going to put up:

halloween !!!
and
pictures w cam and devi (london, deepavali, random-ness!)

amsterdam/brussels (belgium) w wai in november 2006,

xmas in singapore
and
hainan dao with family for xmas 2006

for now.
no captions but let the pictures speak for themselves! will let u know wen there are other albums up!

tanya says i should write longer posts

so here goes

haha some updates first, i guess,

ive been sleeping loads, eating loads of junk food and watching loads of youtube since i got back from my trip with wai. its like i need to recuperate and rest you know?

haha also ive been starting this temp job, that lasts only a week. calling people up again- something similar to what i did last term (calling uni alumni asking them to donate), but i didnt blog abt. hehe.

this time im just calling fresh grad to find out what they are doing, whether they've got a job or if they are unemployed. so this brings me to my life crisis: im in my final year and i have no idea what i wanna do. i dunno if i wanna do a masters. and if i do, where and wat. i dunno if i wanna work, and if i do where and wat. i dunno i dunno i dunno. and my mom wants me to do more studying and my dad says he doesnt care as long as i am happy and i have absolutely no idea. boohoo. boohoo.

stress stress. i just feel that ill be led somewhere somehow by the lords grace and mercy. so procrastination is they way to go. forget researching jobs or masters courses. ill be led by the horn somewhere sometime. maybe ill take a gap year.

tanya o tanya wat do i do? hahaha

anyway more abt my trip to london/dublin.

first, poor wai had a really tough time trying to get herself to london. she thought she was gonna miss her flight cos she missed her train. then when she arrived way before time she realised her flight was cancelled due to bad weather. the poor girl waited a whole 7 hrs before her flight and wasted a whole day cos she only got in at night. but then again we lived in a lovely lovely english house, with a lovely couple- betsy and maurice- dad's frens. the house was really pretty n so english that we wanted to take pics but forgotten too. haha

anyway next time when i go i will try to remember. london was really short and not exactly well-spent cos i only had 1.5 days as i had to go represent my dad's company out of london for a day. so wai had to do most sightseeing herself. im sorry wai! london deserves more! but the modern tate museum was really amazing! haha lovely contemporary art and literature and haha slides!! i have to go back there! cos they have these slides from the 2-5th floor and u slide down! its so fun but wai gets scared...

haha one thing abt this trip is i found new things abt this friend. that she's scared of slides (rolls eyes- i know). she loves turkish delight (rolls eyes- i know). she's scared of the long escalators in london tube stations. wat else, she's doesnt pda. haha erm and some others that i cant rem off hand but i learnt more abt this woman. its wierd we're so alike (hickey's -->this store name in dublin that we laugh at and 'nam nuo hor leck ge geou' --> something my grandma n her mom chants at) but yet we're so not alike (she doesnt like to take touristy pics, nor show any affection to zolly, and loves turkish delight). haha so we're not all the same.

ok i think this post is way too long but i dun care cos tanya loves it long.

wat else.. dublin was more fun as we had a local tour guide ( her beau used to work there see and he had a fren who works there so..) temple bar is the place to be for pubs and clubs and wat have you. we had smoked something slim and it was so vogue and so cool! haha i love my mysteric words haha. irish folk music is soooo fun and the pubs are huge and everyones all so friendly. cider was a yum yum yummy and so was ale. apparently irish women are big, loud and boarish. and we saw some and saw others. i loved my girls comapany and her zolly wasnt too bad. he was nice and romantic but was more fluent in hungarian. so it was a pity but i had a great time! thank u wai min, thank him for me and thank his frens! and i love you~

haha ok im getting really long-winded tanya hun and i think ive written too much and everyone's gonna get bored but its ok, im doing this for you.

love love and might say more next time and hope i get pics from wai wai soooon

janice xxx