Chocolates are a substitute for Love- Liling

No wonder im eating KitKat Chunky now. u see, im listening to sappy love songs, its snowing gently, its cold n im waiting for my period. Well, there's some truth in that statement. Well done Liling! haha. Now i know y ill always be fat. I'm a girl who not only loves food but loves Love. Like who doesnt? haha. ok anyway..

Man, ive a crap day. i didnt sleep properly last night cos i was afraid to miss my 9am lect (which ive done so for the last 2 weeks n i feel really bad cos the lecturer is really nice -hes like a cuddly bear!) BUT i wen to lect alright n i slept thru all 2 hours! i can still rem seeing the lecturer looking at me at my [argh, looking out of my window makes me lonely, dammit] in between 'awakes'. dammit i feel awful right now. it so damn rude of me! but i cld not help it! id b better if i jus didnt turn up man.. urgh.. n i slept thru my 12pm lect too. shittieee... oh! but its snowin'.... im mixed up inside

aww n ive been watching this hk soap. abt love (between all kinds- family, friends, the world, lovers) not exactly the best thing to do wen ure at this time of the month, but u really don wanna do anything but slack it.. u know wat i mean? sigh, when will She come? get it over n done with!

also, yesterday i watched this clip on patients with amnesia. its so damn sad i tell u. o god.

"its like u r trapped in this moment. everything before that moment is VOID. u r living in the same world as everyone else, feeling n perceiving, but once u turn away n come back, its gone. its as if every moment u jus awake. always lost."

and the fella, Clive, is not a dumb retard, hes intelligent, like u n me. just with retrograde(cant rem past, i think) n antegrade(cant rem new info) amnesia. sigh, id rather die. wats life with no memories? whether nice or horrid, even regrets. o man, i feel wierd.

oh! but one lovely thing abt Clive is that he loves his wife very much! everytime she enters the room, he hugs her n cries her name with such enthusiasm, be cos to him, everytime he sees her, its like he's seeing her for the first time in ages. i dunno wat to feel, but

Awwwwww.... is this love?