i am socially challenged in more ways than one. i have never been more non unaffected than i have ever been in a long while since primary school. i rem i had a quarrel w hui mei once in primary two. i rem the classroom location-in basement two, class 2/2. tho i cant rem wat it was abt- maybe abt rubber dust or sth like that- i rem i was terribly upset n went to the public phone, inserted a 10 cent coin n called my mom. i cant rem if i had cried out to her to tell her i was bullied or i jus made the call to threaten my fren. but i rem the journey i took- up the stairs n to the canteen to the orange phone and the number i dialled. 3393628. i always dialled that number as i ask my mom wat time shes comin to pick me up. and i cant rem if hui mei remembers that incident. i did. but im afraid it might be a false memory. but i rem it. i dunno why. i dunno y i dun rem much of my pri school days. maybe its because i was a loser n didnt do much. and wen i did sth it bacame disastrous. i hope i rem my uni days.

i jus read wat i wrote n i believe i was a loser then and i still am. i was obnoxious n irritating. i might even be stuck up n low in eq. no wonder i dun have memories. its cos i am so utterly bad in being a friend and a person. thats y. thats the reason. im a shittified fucked up piece of shit n i still am n always will be. stay away from me im a walking socially inadequate monster. stay away.