my first exam is tomorrow!! *panic*freakout*stress*and still procrastinating writing this* ugh helphelp.. gasp cant breath.

haha ok drama aside im damn scared la. though i know my first year is not counted i jus have to pass but wat if i cant pass? i don wanna retake! it costs fucking 60 pounds which is 180 sgd just to retake 1 ppr! so not worth it moreover that means i cant enjoy my hols properly.. butbutbut

i havent been doin wat im supposed to do! im not even doin the last min study im supposed to be doing now! shite. i told lynn last night that i would start today and i promise i will. haha jus typing this makes my heart pump faster so maybe wen i have enough stress in me it'll lead me to memorise my evolution of behaviour shite. anyway it's funny cos last night i went to bed at abt 4-5am (my lifestyle since 1 week ago, i hope i can wake up tmr) while watching hk drama and then i was expecting myself to wake up at abt 2pm and then feel stressed yet fully refreshed to study like fuck till dinner time (5.15-6pm) then cont a bit n go to sleep early. BUT for some reason or another i woke up at 1030am! but the wierd thing was i thot that wen i looked at my clock sometime ago, it had said 1.20pm and i thot id sleep in till abt 2pm as planned. i took a double take ok wen i saw 1030am ok. damn funny then while lying in bed i suddenly became awake! my mind started whirring and i was damn scared la! hahahah

did i sleep thru one whole day? is it tue now and i have jus missed my exam (9.15-10.15am). actually up till now i m still afraid that it is tuesday. but i don think so cos i still feel sleepy and i checked my hp- no missed calls. if i had slept thru dinner, kat n dev wld call n wonder wat hapened to me. if i had missed the exam sara n lianne wld be trying to get me too. so for now im safe. phew. im subconsciously stressed. im trying to get myself more stressed so id jus sit in my chair n do efficient memorising of shit for tmr.

ok ta for now till i feel i need to blog again (which shld be soon, cos the stress has died down n i might procrastinate and write another post too sooon, waha)