my first entry on you

these days i have been wondering what is love between two people?

i have been confused and been thinking about what defines it and what creates it-
and i doubted my own ones



very just now, 30 minutes ago,
i felt a feeling of unease throughout my body. i thought it might be just me being uncomfortable going to bed early. it is not like me ever-i felt so uncomfortable that even if i had to turn on my comp again- usual me would never resort to that but the lazy me was willing to press the button and wait the longest wait for it to start. i wondered if it had anything to do with you- this feeling- or was it just me. but this feeling, that i could not put a finger too it- it just bothered- it felt so so wierd. it really was wierd.

i wanted and felt like i needed to talk to him. the more i thought about it the more i missed him so i tried calling- though i know that he must have set off for fieldcamp already. voicemail service hence, i was about to send my starhub message- thinking about what i wanted to say,

my hp rang- thinking it was a friend, i wasn't looking forward to it- esp wen you're pmsy right. then i saw the words "baby" flashing on my hp screen. that made my heart skip a beat. i swear this is one time i remember clearly ever feeling this way- no matter how cliche or cheesy this sounds- it did, it happened to me

it was impossible- i thought you were gone and you never call during this time- i thought i was imagining it but i quickly called back which followed a flood of " i miss yous"-

and then it hit me, it dawned on me -love-
pining hurts and not being able to do anything about it leaves you in desperation.
the "i really love you"s and the "i miss you"s- always makes everything better

at that point of time -to be able to listen to his voice, knowing that during that shortest period of time, both share the most intense and intimate feeling of being together- my strongest feelings of love towards him and the strongest feelings of aching pain took over me that it just simply occured- the answer to my own question. i found it in just 5 minutes of conversation today -i am amazed. i am, at the wonders of the heart and our left ventricles.

it might be a coincidence, or pure chance today- but i would like to attribute it to love.

of course the worst moment always has to come-the sound of the click and the silence- the sudden emptiness which runs through your whole being and only crying would bring any relief- and then you decide for once in your whole time being 'in love' that this is one time you really should blog about.

i miss you. i really do-

hollywood

ralph fiennes is hot hot hot.

omg he's so i dunno what to say- manly? He's got such beautiful eyes!

haha i just watched maid in manhatten and i remembered him from the constant gardener (highly highly recommended)

j lo is even hotter like i even had to say it.. sigh

anyway i loved the constant gardener and wanted to blog abt it but got too lazy until now haha. its really a good movie- a different take on love, world issues and politics whatever. catch it for urself. the director brings u through the shots- hes really good! o man the emotions u feel from the directors hardwork- editing the scenes whatever u technically call it. the violence speaks by itself and there's not a single shot of gore. loved it. watch it!

rachel weisz is sexy too. hmm hmm. love these pretty woman with curves love em!

haha ok enjoy my recommendation! the constant gardener! haha muackks!

sorry for the lack of posts in this blog- if u even come by anymore

haha ive been too busy/ lazy whichever u wld like to view it.

exams are long over but the concrete fear of getting failed grades has made me hardworking (believe it or not)- ive been reading on my lectures! whoot! -haha

hopefully i can get a good degree..

ok wats been up besides studying- there's gym, morning runs, diet and detox :)

ive been realtively healthy over here on this side of the globe than there- i wonder why

also theres the chit-chatting among beloved friends that is time-consuming but so precious- haha the wonders of the female mouth/lips

and there's the occasional dinner togethers that has been frequent this past week- its so nice to cook/eat/wash up w everyone else.. just like home :)

and later theres the "ma la" steamboat dinner we're having at fang lin's place- be prepared for burning lips, tears n a numb tongue.

hmm besides that there's the msn chats to friends n family back home..

i like life here-

simple n fulfilling

shiok ah!