writing my dads day card

makes me feel sad n wanna cry. sob.

ok i really gtg start revising. will do so after this post.

i cant wait to go back.

ok i need to work hard so that my break will be a well-deserved one.

woman thou art loosed

watch it.

ive been sleeping too much and at wierd hours. im gonna sleep now though ive been a wake only 6 hrs ago. im trying to get my times back. ta

i always enjoy girly nights out

like makin up for one another, viewing each other's make up! and doing each others nails n stuff! playing doll! cool, i love it. its just a chill out session for the girls, yeah we rock! we also had a "truth" "dare" "promise" session! haha u shld see dev n kat knockin on doors asking for toothpaste n condoms respectively. cam was in lip lock with akua n i had to clean some blokes shoe! wild but i also love the sharing of our deepest darkest secrets as well *wink*

haha and my blades arrived!!! so ive been trying to blade n kats a wonderful teacher and supporter! :) hehe its been fun! haha i thought it was hideous but they think its fine so i guess its not so bad (the blades im referring to) well its just a childhood dream im realizing, hehe. yum.

ok i gtg now clean off the make up n shower! tata

help..

im sick. bodily. how? i hate it! ive caught the flu or whatever u call that. my shoulders are aching and im feeling feverish n i have to keep swallowing snot! boo!

and i have to go to taunton to celebrate lianne's bd.. im not gonna recover :( o well i just hope ill recover by the time i start my revision next week.

will keep updated. byebye

still feeling good!

wheee!!!! i LURVE my hair!! haha today wen i woke up it fell so beautifully.. sigh im so in love w myself! waha! its like the hair is straight yet w volume n has a bounce of its own.. sigh some more wen i took a walk this morning and the cooling wind blew, my hair wen "piao-ing" (flowing for english speakers) sigh u should have seen the sight haha gorgeous me :):):) hehe

today is a fantatically beautifully, sunshiny warm day.. still in love w queen, the rock man!! i can dance to any of their songs!! hahaha n drinking cold naicha.. life is good!! :):):)

post of good luck

just remembered that my dearest frens are in the midst of their exams now n i wanna wish them all the best!! its freaky as this is the last of this year!

so to Devi, Cam, Eunice, Liling & Kat (if ure reading this while ur study break hehe):
Dearests rem i love u and u can do it!!! yeah baby!!

well they'll all have finished by the time i even start my revision so they shld be consoled! they're hard work wld pay off earlier n they have a longer time to relax!! waha ok i better atart soooooooon....

love kats happy song cd, it makin me.... HAPPY! haha

im feeling sexy!!

haha for some reason or another i feel *sexy* and proud of my fat body. cellulite n all. all the softness n fatty curves!! hehe this is a great feeling! like ive finally internalised my figure n am loving myself. if this continues ill be wearing a tube in orchard even if my fats r being sqeezed out at my pits n waist. i love myself at this moment! hehe its a wonderful feeling. wat have i been doing hating myslef!! sigh! i love my byebye underarms my waistless waist my wobbly butt n less than perfect short legs. god im in l,ove w myslef!! whee!!!!

hehe n the goatee is smaller now, im pluckin in more n more. i hope i don empty myself cos then ill look like prostitute. and if u were thinkin im feeling sexy cos of that goatee, im not sure but i doubt it. i think i have jus been enlightened hehe. i hope this lasts. ok i love my fats.

not one but two!!

kat n i were on our way to shop n we saw 2 rainbows!!!! one on top of the other!! n beautifully arched across the sky n very very bright!!!!! i was in shock wen i saw it! waha!!

and kat is learning chinese. we have taught her "wo"= me and "ni"= you. im excited for her though i really hate learning it. haha. shes gonna take it next year at the language course here, so we r giving her the basics now ;0)

im into queeeen....
under pressure yeah! they r one rock group! :):):):):)

pain but nice

post edit (many have commented on the explicity of this post- which i didnt really think it was so. but i shall warn still warn u jus in case)- this post may not be suitable for ppl who may get queasy after imagining janice n her pubic hair. so please do not continue if u didnt know im a disgusting shit. i still wanna maintain my "innocent" "angelic" image. haha

haha not SM (kat would love that tho haha)

anyway yesterday i decided to try plucking some hair *ahem* down there. on my own. haha no brazilian wax missus, just me and my handy philips ice epilator n a tweezer. haha i didnt exterminate all the hair. jus the top bit n now it looks like a little goatee! haha! well let me bring u through my first experience of the plucking of the down there:

i first had to snip off the long long hair because the epilator would not be able to tug at it. damn pain la but i did it slowly then when i think i was going numb (the skin around the top area) n the epilator didnt seem to be getting the hair out quick i decided to use my faithful tweezers! haha i think its much more efficient cos u can pull the hair out in the direction that hurts the least n u can do it quickly. so except for the neck ache from looking down, there wasnt too much ouch after a while. and the results:

a littl goatee! haha the skin feels so smooth now i feel so 'clean' haha i might try to get more hair out in as least painful a way that i can. u know it seems to get more painful nearer the slit. haha ok i will update more if i do. maybe can even make star shape or heart shape! waha

i had genuine fun

jus hanging out w the folks n kats frens! haha it was great, kats party! :)

we pigged out, as usual on ben n jerrys. plus added baileys some more! how good is that! then there was the opening of presents n cards. singin the bd song- in english, swedish, portugese(how do u spell that kat?), chinese!! haha loads of pics n vids taken of dancing kat. there was a mini karaoke by holly n sandra! wacky! and then there was jus the chill out chat laugh devi, cam n i had. it was a great party!

im damn tired now while waiting for my hair to dry. cant wait to lie in bed. had fun peeps, great company, good music n food/drink/alcohol. not to forget the cool down at the end of the party. jus chatting with the post bd gal, tired yet glad. appreciating our friendship. lil gurl talk- im gonna miss u kat at the end of next year. sigh im gonna bawl my eyes out! waha, boohoo! ok really knackered now... goodnight/morning!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KAT

haha the title was meant to be in caps. but i dun think it will come out like that. damn. anyway this post is dedicated to my beloved friend n pig-out partner, flatmate, scruffy mate dinnertime hall mate. watever. shes special n its her birthday today making her extra extra special!!!! happy 19th!

:):):)

luv u always x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x

You Are a Soft Kisser Your kissing style is understated, but effective You give soft, sweet, and soulful kisses to your special guy And that's the key: he's got to be special to get your kiss Because you don't just go around kissing anyone What's Your Kissing Style? Take This Quiz :-) Find the Love of Your Life (and More Love Quizzes) at Your New Romance.

You'll Find Love Where You Least Expect It You're the type most likely to find love... surprised? You shouldn't be! You're a fun, independent woman who is always out and about. And you're smart to sometimes leave your girlfriends behind and go it alone. Men love to approach you when you're out by yourself - including Mr. Perfect! Where Will You Find Love? Take This Quiz :-) Find the Love of Your Life (and More Love Quizzes) at Your New Romance.

a random post

its early in the morning, my evolution of behaviour tb is open in front of me but i have only read 1 page in 2 hours.

listening to my old cd- fantastic females- sigh- so nostalgic-hehe

drinking nai cha. im addicted to the stuff- been so for the past 4 days- i think i make the best nai cha- thick n milky n sweet- sweeeeet-

i was trying to come up with a list of things to do when im back n post it on the sidebar of my blog. but i dunno how to. can somebody teach me please.

i was just thinking right im always online here cos theres practically nth to do. nth to eat, no tv to watch, nowhere to go. but if im home as in back in sg rite, will i still come online so much? i rem i nv liked the computer. last time i only went online wen it was absolutely necessary and mailboxes are always full of mail n junk mail. now its like i check my mailbox 3x a day! haha-loser. anyway i find that im "closer" to my frens now then i ever was. in the sense that i "see" them online almost everyday, if not once every 2 days? and im updated on the happenings of their lives, their right-now emotions. the little complains of everyday n just everything, every emotion. also thats cos now ive got a blog, somehow i start reading ppl's blogs too. so its like i get updated on frens who i dont chat on a daily basis with. if in sg, ill be glued to the tv all day i bet. wld i be too lazy to go out? haha cos theres always a bag of chips or junk food in the kitchen cabinet. i realised being here made me closer to my frens. believe or not. haha n technology worked for me in the sense that it drew my friendships nearer. dunno how to say also. but i guess u know wat i mean. hmm.. my friends.. im blessed! haha

i think its an early morning, fantastic females, naicha thing that made me reflect on something so random.

heavens what i feel- gloria estafan
and now im lost in my emotions
ure becoming my emotion
theres nth i can do to stop this love for u
i was not siupposed to fall in love w u
i was someone else someone else in love w u
i was not supposed to fall in love w u
so let me savour it
heavens wat i feel...

haha nth doin, jus a song in the cd thats making me bob up n down

aww

thanks all of u, i realised i cant be a social loser if ive got such cool caring frens. and it must be the hormones. haha, im feeling better now!

mary, drey, rachoo, lynn, chu n wai: thanks! i know im cared for now, haha n worthy definitely!!

reshma: missing you!!

yep that was a bad episode but its over! anyway after a long time im finally gonna create a link to my yahoo photo album. ive put up the spain pics n will put up other pics of my room n my frens here soon too! tell me wat u wan n ill put it up! well ive procrastinated puttin up my fatty pics. but i realised i need to share my life here with my frens back home so there u go. and i know that even if im fatty n look like shit my frens wont judge me too harshly :) n still accept me! wahhaha. ok so here are the pics :)

i am socially challenged in more ways than one. i have never been more non unaffected than i have ever been in a long while since primary school. i rem i had a quarrel w hui mei once in primary two. i rem the classroom location-in basement two, class 2/2. tho i cant rem wat it was abt- maybe abt rubber dust or sth like that- i rem i was terribly upset n went to the public phone, inserted a 10 cent coin n called my mom. i cant rem if i had cried out to her to tell her i was bullied or i jus made the call to threaten my fren. but i rem the journey i took- up the stairs n to the canteen to the orange phone and the number i dialled. 3393628. i always dialled that number as i ask my mom wat time shes comin to pick me up. and i cant rem if hui mei remembers that incident. i did. but im afraid it might be a false memory. but i rem it. i dunno why. i dunno y i dun rem much of my pri school days. maybe its because i was a loser n didnt do much. and wen i did sth it bacame disastrous. i hope i rem my uni days.

i jus read wat i wrote n i believe i was a loser then and i still am. i was obnoxious n irritating. i might even be stuck up n low in eq. no wonder i dun have memories. its cos i am so utterly bad in being a friend and a person. thats y. thats the reason. im a shittified fucked up piece of shit n i still am n always will be. stay away from me im a walking socially inadequate monster. stay away.

im bored..

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.

In love, you feel the most alive when your partner is patient and never willing to give up on you.

You'd like to your lover to think you are optimistic and happy.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please.

Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage something you've always wanted... though you haven't really thought about it.

In this moment, you think of love as something you don't need. You just feel like flirting around and playing right now.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

Your Mexican Name Is...

Doña Berenice

What's your Mexican Name?

today is c.o.l.d.

author's edit: there may be irregularities n incongruency in grammer n flow of post due to foreseen circumstances. also be prepared for a long post as author is tired n cant b bothered to summarize. post flows in "narration in accordance to time"- wats that word i cant think it now. ok here goes:

i just got back from taunton n i had one of my wildest experience here! i really had great fun w lianne n sara n made 3 new frens! :)

bbq yest was lovely! too bad i could not stay to enjoy it as i had to rush to catch the bus to taunton. i run like hell ok. i mean like hell. well they had this live band w marquee thingys n we had a cup of pimps. nice n fruity :)

so that was my dinner right n i rushed to take the bus in taunton right. lucky i didnt miss it, well cos i run like hell. anw the bus trip was lovely. it was 1 h n i was brought back to my days in stc wen i had to take the 1 h bus everyday to get home. but the route made it quite hard to really be nostalgic. here, green was everywhere i tell u its damn english n u can really hate it or like it at times. two extremes on a continuum. lucky yesterday it was love-it

so i wen to taunton for the first time n its such a nice town! bigger than exeter n it had a bigger sainsburys. haha. ok. yep so we bought more food to cook for dinner-notice that this is once again a double dinner thing. bought alot alot alot of unhealthy food n snacks so my diet will fail. shit. haha. plus alcohol which i will elaborate later.

haha then we made our way back to sara's fren's house- jason. see he had the house all to himself as his family was back in hk (ok all company tonight are fm hk n i bet at the rate that i listen to canto i can be a translator wen im back) so me, lianne n sara cld bunk in his parents rm- double bed- not that we really needed a bed since we didnt sleep much at all.

so it was ard 7plus n as jason was working- his housemate n fren- niko had come w lianne n sara to pick me at the bus station. i was like a swaku visiting another town for the first time. ok so sara n i chilled out w an all-time fave vid on jurassic park n by that time jason n fren chris came. so we started cookin "dinner" at abt 11 n we ate abt after 12!!! haha. but it was homecooked n yummy!!! i really missed homecooked food so much! and and we made sangria!!!! n lychee martini!!!! all home made! n they were really such good company n fun to hang out w! tok cock n jus chill out. sigh i miss that

n then it was slackin ard then a few round of card games (all hk style man!) n then the truth or dare game that every social gathering which has boys n gals always occurs. the game started at 3am n ended at abt 7am! i slept fm 7 plus to 9 plus n now im back in exeter. u do the maths. haha! crazy! but the truth or dare game, i would like to highlight, has not been like any truth or dare game ive ever ever played. haha this one is really wild n far out i tell u. haha it included stuff like lianne n pubic hair n jason n armpit hair n kisses here n there. butbutbut before u come to any dirty conclusions, it was all just pure fun n nothing sinister, haha. andandand janice was not involved in the way out dares cos im newcomer so im shy n they r shy. haha whee!

anw im goin back there again tonight after lianne finishes work cos we r goin to bristol tmr to have sunday tea! i think! so its been an exciting weekend for me n well im gonna b broke too but i haven had such fun in a long time! like just hanging out in a group n doin crazy things. and the guys r decent so there should not be too much worries. n even if they arent i am decent enought *wink*

a quickie

haha i meant a quick post before i go for lecture soon.

yesterday i wen to the town lib (yes ive been going there to get some pretty interesting books- well i think i ve read more here than i ever have at any period in my life) ok anw back to the story, i borrowed a pilates book and a bellydancing book! haha im so excited abt the bellydancing one! ive just taught myself handcircles! whee! maybe i can perform by the time im back! waha

em wat else, oh for dinner today we;re having a bbq well the hall has made it so. the last time it wasnt that nice, dried up meat n all. hopefully this time is nice, a change of loacation n we're having bbq chicken wings!! i was watching this hk drama a few days ago n they were bbq-ing by the seaside!! i wanna bbq!! lets make sure we have a bbq session eh!! anyone, everyone ill org one! n lets also have a steam boat session, mahjong session, seafood session while we're at it! whoot!

yeayea! today im going to taunton- sarah's place to drink n chill out! whhoo hoo! i hope its still on n im goin haha, shall update on that later

ok im back to reading my bellydancing book! ta!

o great

its 1230am and i just started on my 2000-word report- to be handed in tmr. nope today, at which now im taking a "eat green apple" break.

m i stressed out?

no..

em ok maybe, subconsciously the stress might be eating away in me as i consume my green apple.

this is wat homework does to you/me/everybody!

did i tell u i was toomuchlactose-intolerant. ive been smellin my fart the whole day n i seem to secretly, ok maybe not so secret now, enjoy it.

im gross tell me im gross cos i know im gross. yes im gross. everyone knows

hey that rhymed. ok my green apple is almost gone but im trying hard to get all the meat i can out of it before i have to go back to workin on the report. oops farted. hmmhmm. ok i think i better cont doin it before i die of lack of sleep.

help!! i have hair crisis!

im balding!! help help help! i realised the extent of my hair dropping when jus now in the shower i had to pause my soapin activity to unblock the drain thingy of my fallen hair. sob. im scared. is it because of the msg in the soup? is it cos my hair is damn f long now i wanna cut it or is it because i haven washed my hair for 3 or is it 4 days?? ok thats me the slob. anw i need to cut my hair! is so long!!!! n it got tangled w my necklace! shitty

im gonna get my hair cut

jan is excited!!!

haha my dad is aw so sweet! he called today to tell me the arrangements of my SQ ticket. there r some complications see n i was supposed to go back on the 28th of june rite even tho my exams end on the 16th of june. and i thought i might as well stay n slowly pack n maybe go around cornwall or bath and try n maximise my accomodation here since i have already paid for it. but then the big but (somehow i cant use caps i wonder y) anyw he said i shld jus come back asap!! haha so he said 18th n i was like *imagine mouth opened* "so early!!" n he said "its not early la come back asap, some more now june hols then u can spend more time with u" then i was like "wat abt my acc? i need time to pack!" n he said "u can start packing now how long u need to pack, acc nv mind la u stay there how long already dun miss home meh"

aww..

ok i was damn excited at the thot of comin home earlier but then tickets were fully booked over that weekend so he got me on the 22nd june!!! hehe im on waiting list though. i wanna watch movies w julius n jereme!! haha ok so the latest news is ill be back on the 22nd!! woohoo

anw that really motivated me to do some serious work (ive been doin nth nth!! during the weekend) so yea im gonna get to it since its abt 6 weeks. and ive decided not to go on msn too much since its a real distracter for me! haha so yep hopefully *fingers crossed* ull see less of me on msn n im doin more work!

i like mr brown

haha hes cool man :)
hes so singaporean :):)

i like grean beans with mustard

im so proud of us!- me n kat
as we have been taking runs/jogs/walks this week!
out of 7 days, we managed 5 days!
woohoo we're gonna be fit! healthy! pure (pewer)! haha

oh no!

i forgot to blog yesterday tho i told myself to rem at dinner!! argh!
well cos it was 05 05 05 yesterday n i wanted to make an entry! dammit ill have to wait for 060606. o well happy 050505 ppl! :)

this is a random post as im in the uni lib now wasting time before my next lecture starts :)
haha AND im wearing a bright green tube!! gawk! haha under a black jacket :) not under the fancy jersy tho as im wearing normal bra! haha i know.. dun u go laughing at me now i dun intend to take off this jacket anw :):)
summer is coming! the weather is getting better but i think the sun here is super damaging man! just one shine fm the intense sun n ull get burnt! hahah sara ure wrong! cos i was pink yesterday! i mean if ure(anyone) free (cos ur xms r over) maybe u can check it out for me n for ur interest. is the sun here more damaging or the one in sg. sara's theory is that in sg we're near the equator so its worst but devi thot she read somewhere that its more damaging here. so whos right? i cant b bothered to check but im gonna stay out of the sun!
ok its time for lecture now byebye

i really love looking at beautiful people

really really really really

its an obsession. guy n girl alike. ooh! yum! hmm!

so if ure gorgeous n hot please stand in front of me so i can ogle at u

i cant sleep..

i bruise easily- natasha bedingfield
i love this song, fell in love w it over the radio n finally found the title and artist! oh i love it go check it out!!

My skin is like a map
of where my heart has been
And i cant hide the marks
its not a negative thing
So i let my guard down
drop my defences down by my clothes
i'm learning to fall
with no safety net to cushion the blow

I bruise easily
so be gentle when u handle me
Theres a mark you leave
Like a love heart carved on a tree
I bruise easily
Cant stratch the surface
without moving me easily
I bruise easily
I bruise easily

I found you fingerprints
on a glass of wine
Do you know you're leaving them
all over this heart of mine too
But if i never take this leap of faith
I'll never know
So im learning to fall
with no safety net to cushion the blow

[Chorus]

Anyone wo can touch you
can hurt you or heal u
Anyone who can reach you
can love you or leave u

So be gentle...

[Chorus]

I bruise easily
I bruise easily

happy happy happy

haha i did some shopping! whee! shopping is so good for the women's health i tell u. having pms? go shopping!

anw let me fill u in on my buys! miss janice got a pair of whitish flower sandals! ill try n upload a photo! AND i got a pair of white shorts (this is a good buy for 2.50 pounds! woooooot!) haha AND i got this "fancy jersy"- as the receipt calls it. haha its like a black jacket thingy that is short n has no front.. like hk style lose top.. hmm dunno how to explain it but i love it!! can wear w my tubies n stuff i won wear sleeveless! haha hoping to wear in sg but my fren says it'll be too hot! well ill wear it i go to the movies at night! haha im happy

i love seasonal shopping! in winter u can buy suede boots n in summer u can get sg stuff hehe more excuse to get more flip flops (look kat! not slippers!) whee!!

n i bot 3 shirts for my brothers! vintage-style! at a bargain! aw im such a sweet sister! lalala might go shopping again on tue!

also found out fm drey that baked beans are not fatty! haha cos im on this diet see so i dun wanna spoil it and recently ive really been into baked beans. like for the past 3 dinners ive had baked beans as a side dish! well of cos im like suffocating in my own fart n always shitting- which is a good thing for me! hehe also kat says its really an english thing so maybe im gettin english.. (everybody go woo~)

haha oh oh yesterday i blushed in a long time!
-well, im still very much erm.. into u- waahhahaha!
haha i really wanna rem this even if its shortlived n i dun think he reads this anyway but yea wai was there to share my happy mo!!
please ppl its nth haha jus me n my fantasies! so no gossip goin on!!!!

its all been goooood before im attacked by the deadly pms. well wai, persevere! and ive still got the zuton fever!

you know i get a funny feelin like an epidemic runnin thru my head...!

happy may day ppl!