ive been busy :)

too busy in fact i wanna start complaining i have no time for myself but then again tis is wat i was looking forward to so i made myself learn to appreciate it..
thing is i wan everything in priority. family frens n myself (im selfish but still) and all frens very close, becoming close, not too close n acquaintences. but like there seems to be no time for anything. i jus realised this is one decent post since im back that im writng before i go to bed. been really damn lazy. but funs great. lemme do a summary (some injustice really but well better than nth rite) also will say wat ive eaten. yuyum. of my week home so far. time flew jus like that. sigh i jus hope its not all gone before its time to go back.

1stday-sun-fathers day
arrival in the noon time. met family. drove home immdiately then had nydc cheesecake w vietnam coffee @home. part of the dads day celebration followed by dinner at crystal jade paragon. feels great to feel such warmth w the family. love is in the air. haha to note-jan is not afriad of wearing tighter tees so beware of ur eyes wen we meet. haha sorry la cant b bothered anymore too fat too try n hide now anyw. that aside, we went to visit mama at my uncles place. she didnt look too good.. sigh but shes my mama my mama!

mon
met wai in town. ate rotiboy n fried mars bar @far east. hmmhmm. pearly milk tea tooooo!!!! jereme was out w us too, cool :) wai stayed over we played monopoly w the boys n dad- missed her physical presence but its all still the same! we r the same ol brand new us! -haha pardon the lameness jan is tired now

tue
wai got sick :( went home. jereme n i wen to watch batman returns @j8. popcorn n b&j fudge choc ice cream!- i like the movie n company! haha shiok man! batman is so hot! wahhaha then lynn called after the movie n it was drey's bd surprise surprise!! had lychee martini-trust me, damndamn nice one of the bestest cake ever! catch up w drey n lynn n realised lynn the cam-WAR :) next lynn n i headed 'home' n landed outside my hm at jalan kayu having maggie goreng-shiok n teh tarik n prata! chatted shallow/deep/philosophical stuff n got home at only @6am. crazy i knw but once in a whole ok la:)

wed
after jk prata headed home jus to shower to head to work w wai min at the national heritage board. a short 5 day stint thingy. wai n i were dying at work tho. me out of sleepiness n wai out of sickness (the poor thing..) then wen home n sleptsleptslept

thu
work w lynn (wai's last min replacement as she took 2 days mc) had great lunch- fried wanton mee n polar suger roll. haha then met angie my darling @bugis! shes once again the same ol brand new her- looking better n better!! :) hahaha dinner at v8 movie cafe or sth. baked rice n more pearly milk teas is damn shiok! of cos its jus great to be out w angie n realiseing shes been spending like ALOT haha- ask her man. yeah then there was dessert- thai sweet tapioca, pulu hitam n chendol. shiokshiok!

fri
work w lynno amigo again had fanta lunch again- popiah n mee siam. then ya kun tea-c. hmmhmm. lynn n i met drey at suntec to have burger king. haha after that we walkedwalkedwalked to esplanade- me n drey doin our kissing stuff ;) then at espla we got on the river taxi boat ride thingy. romantic n jus oh so lovely. took the lrt home this night. the 1st time ever, cool, thanggam. a lil freaky tho but fun!

sat
pedi/mani. grocery shopping w mom n then ya-kun style food for tea. retro is cool n yummy. haha then it was the aunties meeting in celebation of dreys bd! had it at billybombers heeren, yummy! first saw mary looking same ole good then yx in her nicenicenice new cute/funkalicious/sophis cut! really a fanta change chim! rita was same old fun too!! hahahah i love our kissing pic! then drey the bd gal lokin fantabulously hot in her holeintheback top n special bra-haha
had a lot of fun tho missing guan.. gerald was a very pleasant surprise n rach n lynn came late but nv too late! decided to meet up next thu evening for a stayover at my place n jus chill out, catch up.
lynn drey n i headed down to forbidden city!!!!! in the bus drey n i discussed stuff. haha our stuff like k*** stuff. haha n we had a few muacks here n there. haha anyway forbidden city is cool but music was alright so we decided to chll at the courtyard instead. ive never felt vloser to these 2 aunties, esp drey. haha alcohol does wonders to the inhibitions of speech/thoughts/feeling n actions(wahahaha). great night. they came over to stayover cos 3 drinks got us pretty seh. haha so need to work on it but anyw yep dancing in bed was quirky but great.

sun
woke up early for some sg-style brekkie- bazhang n carrot cake n putu dunno wat. went to lyynos church cos we were too late to go to cor n then wen to town to get special pretty rings :) love it! headed home (haha had durian! gosh the epitome of shiokness) before a lovely family dinner w family frens. wen to visit mama later in the hospital n felt sorry for her( shall elaborate if i have time next time), sigh i need time
i wanna spend time w her! i wanna spend family time w juls n jer n i need time! time to spend quality time w all my frensfrensfrens. sorry chu for cancelling out last min! cant wait for tue!

i was enlightened today that for this hols its not all abt me being alble to slack me time away 'resting' n catching up on tv prog but abt wat ive learnt fm being in the uk. and that is to appreciate time in sg. w frens n family. n the bonds. well call me ppl who i haven met yet! make sure we have a date!! sorry if i cant meet u ealrier!!! i dodododo wannnnnna meeeeeeeettttt!!!!! ill be calling more ppl after next next week (THAILAND!!!!!) 96615029-never changes!!

ps-sorry if there r speelin mistakes n illogical stuff spewed or ive rem stuff wrongly im trying to quickly do a brief summary of my first week home b4 i forget n then include wat ive ate n felt n experienced n learnt n all that. not easy ok this week was great really! hope i can upload some hotos soon. :)

home feels great

sorry if some of u didnt know i was coming back. my homecoming was meant to b a surprise for the birthday girl audrey who turned 20 yesterday :) well shes clever n she kinda wasnt too surprised wen i arrived at her doorstep w lynn last night. fantastic mini catch up there with lychee martini! damndamn nice cake!!!! it was super impromptu i was on my way home frm batman returns w jereme- another super hunkamunka adventure show. nice.

on mon was town w wai n a stayover n monopoly. haha ok homecooked food n all. ugh i got so much to say! like how i like being home n in sg despite the sweltering hot sticky heat n the publoic transport im taking as my moms using the car now. n how fathers day on sun was great!

also tho im here im missing the people in uk! like kat, cam, lianne, sara etc. devi shld b home now n soon liling n eunice. kat have a good journey home today :)

wat else em hope to upload some photos soon!! haha lynns a camera whore!! lastnight n this morn was spent w her! amaxing :) lovely at jk prata. need to update on that too. ok didnt sleep cool, haha n going for work now! tjanks to wai, its like a 3 day stint thing so hope its good. n money. hmm. update more soon!

My Last Day as a First Year

written on 18th june saturday 2.17 am. unedited.

previous post title reads- my second last day in exeter as a freshie :)

im going home tmr today actually since its one plus now yet im not all happy. i feel sad la. that my first year has gone by jus like that. i wouldnt say it flew by, tho it really seemed like it did looking back now, but its really u-n-f-o-r-g-e-t-t-a-b-l-e. its jus amazing n i have so many things to blog n say n i wanna rem everything. every single emo im feeling right now but i dunno wat to say. actually i do but its all jumbled up n i dunno how to list it coherently.

its jus like new frens ive made. cool good frens that we have come so far tog now, that wen we leave not to see each other at all for 3 mths or more wed cry at the thought. its like we see each other everyday for such an intense period that we or rather i grow accustomed to it. yesterday four of us got stuck in kitchen trying to cook up a storm for the singsoc farewell dinner. we're not good cooks. haha. but well the results were fantastic cos of our friendship sia... devi did her tasty tikka masala chicken curry, kat did yummy beef bolognese, cam did our version of china fried rice n helped me w brocolli n oyster sauce. yum yum. delicious la. sigh i dunno im missing here tho ive been waiting to go home for ages. like cam says in chinese "ren2 shi4 jian4 de4" (humans are uhm, scrupulous?) haha dunno la but well.

and then theres my darling double bed n room. i dunno if i can bear to sleep in it one last time. maybe thats y im not getting into it. its jus too too sad. u guys must be thinking im mad n some kind of a wierdo but then i am. and i really will fucking miss my room. whether or not my room next year is nicer, newer or bigger. well actually i think the fact that is it smaller, single bed n older does make it worse but still. sigh.. (i really sigh ok like im really jus writing wat comes to mind and i realised that this is gonna be one long post but heck). and jus now wen i was in the shower i could not bear to get out of the shower place n press the button to turn the water off. its like the steady water heater has been with me throughout the cold winter days. the days i feel lonley n sad n down the warm water comforts my body n spirit. sounds damn drama but really la! and then i wanted to take a photo of the 'view' i see wwn im in the shower cos i find it really therepeutic but then im so damn tired now that i cant really b bothered hoping against hope that i won regret not doin wat i think i shld. n then theres my balcony. o man.

o and then theres the cooked hall food that never fails. its like alwyas there u can go eat whenever u wan. whether its good or not theres food. next year i dunno man. n then there is the atmosphere of hall dinner. o man. my eye candies. my perty butts. o god i jus realised i didnt get to see my eyecandsy one last time!! o mama. i feel like crying now. n then theres BN (birdsnest- her hair looks like one) and BN2 (he needed a hair cut n now he needs plastic surgery) but theres always CCG (cute cute guy) to save the day. sigh its over its all over

theres so much more ive got to say but im tired of blogging now. im so gonna miss the lonely days. like those days ive spent alone. in my room. solitude. now im going back to a much bigger space with more ppl more friends. this is wat ive waited for n im gonna make sure i enjoy it. tho some of my heart will always be left here with the plcae n ppl. sounds cheesy but i dun care this is my blog. online diary rem? of cos i wana share the experience w u all la, my readers cos i think it makes it more special. a sorrow shared (esp during exams, thx tanya) is a sorrow halved. and now my version- worthiness shared doubles the value.

huh? wat? i dunno

wat i did on friday. my second last day. i woke up ealry in the morning, caught the bus n went to the other campus. found the medical school and 'donated' blood for some tests for 10 pounds. sounds good but ive got an ugly bruise now. seems like ive earned some cash but wait till i tell u i spent 115 something pounds today on some shoes n clothes n swimming costume. o m g. i know but well shopping here really damn shiok la, and cos i know im on my way back mah n sg, shanghai or thailand all small clothes small shoes so here is good for me to get my stuffiesss!!! i really love feeling comfy in my fats! here! its been 6 months since ive felt any societal pressure to control my wt i know im gonna die wen im back i jus know it but i haven felt it. haha. goshie.

ive still got more to write but im really tired right now. gonna miss everyone. kat, devi, cam, lianne, sarah, eunice, liling n close acq n even the bitches on my floor (actually they r really not that bad la. haha but well) i hope to rem clearly all that i have had this year.

being in heathrow airpoirt on my own for the first time getting on the uni coach, freshers week, singsoc, penn court, intro to hall life, knowing kat devi eunice then cam. o god i wanna go into the details but i darent. too long. then theres school n psychology in my life. winter, shopping for winter clothes, snow, hail. xmas hol in sg. realizing how much i miss home n appreciate sg. grumbling that we have to be ine xeter, compaingin abt food. then there r my firat uni exams, had done reports n precticals. hard but well kinda fun n nice. then there were new modules, easter hols n spain. my 1st european tour. n then lafrowda, liling wunice, cooking on my own. living in diff env appreciating my hall n food. all this time there was the usual slack n last min assignment dues. friends to talk to online everyday n emails to check then i started this blog therefore posts to enter. theres jus so much. n then came exma period study slack study sclack more. and then the end came spiralling so quickly. maybe i should have not decided to come back earlier but then thinking abt my family makes it hard to say that.

jereme, daddy, mummy, julius. i dunno i feel sad that now ive come to know of sit responsibilites n priorities n all that. i dunno wat im sayin jus that if this brings tears to my eyes right now it must be something novel im experinecing. maybe this is wat u call growing up n learnign new things. a new feeling. a split life? home/sg vs sch/uk. home n sch used to be one now its not. n its totally diff. its such an experience i dunno man. ive learnt to love my family. seriously realy. n i think it also taught them to love me. i feel like i can hug my parents right now n talk to jereme on the phone for ages wen i never even spoke 2 sentences a day. ive learnt a hell lot. if not psychology then family n sg. i wanna go home yet i dun wan to. its jus wierd damn wierd n i cant decribe it man i iwsh i had better writing abilites and i wish im not so tired but i dont have n i am.

so i guess my last post in exeter as a first yr shall end here

m.s.l.d.i.e.a.a.f

the above would be revealed before u know it :)

anyway

wat i did on friday- i woke up ealry in the morning, caught the bus n went to the other campus. found the medical school and 'donated' blood for some tests for 10 pounds. sounds good but ive got an ugly bruise now. seems like ive earned some cash but wait till i tell u i spent 115 something pounds today on some shoes n clothes n swimming costume. o m g. i know but well shopping here really damn shiok la, and cos i know im on my way back mah n sg, shanghai or thailand all small clothes small shoes so here is good for me to get my stuffiesss!!! i really love feeling comfy in my fats! here! its been 6 months since ive felt any societal pressure to control my wt i know im gonna die wen im back i jus know it but i haven felt it. haha. goshie.

exams are finally O.v.e.r.

yet im so tired so tired

home here i coooomeee!!!

cant wait cant wait

still tired still tired

i.need.a.haircut.badly.

haha i jus realised i haven cut my hair in 6 bloodyhelllong months!!!!

gosh im so grossed out. tho my frens here tell me i look better w the long hair. i don think i will keep it long. tho i need it to cover my fat face i don think i can stand the heat. tho i like to plait my hair i miss the feel of a short bob n an exposed neck. but dammit my face is damn o now. ugh ugh ugh decisions decisions decisions. exam tmr exam tmr exam tmr.

and u know wat i miss u too lee wai min! decided to pop over ur blog tho i know u don update it n hope against hope. and i was pleasantly surprised :) first it was updated tho u jus posted last night, second u wrote abt meeee!!! im touched babe n i wish i can send u an emoticon (haha) now but for some damned reason msn is down for me here.

and jus early this morning before i went to bed i was chatting to tanya n feeling all nostalgic. and i wanna thank tanya tho she's not with me physically now (and shes not dead either, haha) its all cos of her that made my life the way my life is made now. she was my sitting buddy in sec3.
cos of her, i got to know some of my closest frens- wai min n angie.
cos of her, we did maths together everyday after school. which led me to the most hardworking period of my life. even tho she had left on 10 june 2001 (she told me last night n on friday it was her 4th year out of sg, sigh) i had been habituated to being hardworking. so i did well for my o levels (subjective, but good for me) and got into sajc where i got to know more of my close frens.

and from sajc im now in uni of exeter. so u see tanya tanya shes my tanya. haha i owe my life to her. :) shes gonna make a speech for me at my funeral or wedding, whichever comes first n i promised to go to her wedding in 2009.

of cos all my other close frens r precious to me as well. but jus for now i wanted to talk about tanya. (haha! i know! i can do like a mini feature of all my frens!- haha but i hate writing long posts. its jus too long. and i guess im only doing this cos i felt this emotion last night n also cos msn is down so haha)

i miss u tanya!

and wai i told tanya that we owe our friendship to her! in a way! (haha see i reciprocated ur love!!)

cant wait to be back (just hope i wont be toooo lazy to go out, haha)

pictures of my pig outs..

yesterday's yesterday: hmm, orgasmic, some baileys haagen daz, hmm hmm




yesterday: i found i like biscuity chocolates on certain days. i like it king sized. haha i like it that they ave everything in xxxxxxxL and choc that is huge! waha

bruised bum

haha todays ppr was ok i jus vomitted everything that i had crammed into my head 2 hrs b4 the exam. haha think i didnt really ans the qn. but think its ok, should be able to pass!

andandand i bot some nice funky new slippers!!!!!! from Next!! haha i love them. pricey i guess but o well. haha!! lovelovelove it. and kat thinks it cool so yea its not auinty!!- to sara n lianne heh

n ive got a bruised bum fm fallin fm roller blading!! on one cheek three times!! hahaha but i must say ive improved! finally my dream come true- being able to roller blade. not well tho but learning! haha im proud of kat n i!! we spent like 2.5 hrs after dinner trying to get the hang of it. and its not easy mind u cos we're on a hill. will try n take some pics to show u guys!

ok tired now gotta shower n snug into bed..

studying

its a love hate relationship. u love it cos it seems to give u direction n a sense of achievement. u hate it cos its not easy n it works ur brain n it prevents u fm wasting ur life away playing solitaire and watching shows.

shitty i keep thinking abt setting foot in heathrow airport. haha ok this post has served no purpose or meaning except to allow me to procrastinate. takeabreak. whatever,

till my next "break" ta

homecoming

im excited abt it. dunno y jus am today especially :)it seems as if its not gonna be too long after my exams! in fact its too quick i cant take it all in. o well but now i have to study for the dreaded exam first.............

im taking a break from all the last minute craming.. exams in 40 min, i hope the 2 topics i spotted will come out or else im really funcked up *pleasepleaseplease*crossesfingers*

anyway im still quite mad abt the ticket thing its like i feel so sad n disappointed. i hate sia to the very core of the core now. and i think subconsciously im affected by it. ta ma de man seriously. if i don pass the rest of my exams its not cos i did last min work but cos of sia. haha then ill claim compensation!! ugh im fuming.

ok i better go back to playing my spider solitaire (i think its a pretty good timewasting-stressrelieving-revisionprocrastinating game) to release some stress n anger.

tata again for now

!!!!!!!!

:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(

my dad jus called me this morning to tell me that there was some shit thing w my ticket n blo0dy sia so now im goin home at the original date!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! f@%# knn ccb!!!!! :(:(:(:(:(:(:(

im really so so so so so so saddened! so im coming home on the 28th instead the 22nd! UUUUggghhhhhhHHH

damn the uk sun

haha as i was complaining to kat at dinner just now. i got sunburnt just cos i went to town for lunch this afternoon! dammit. i hate getting tanned. id rather be a ghost. the rays here really can kill. it was jus normal sun but somehow u can feel thee skin being attacked, every pore. damn adn my moisturiser has sph 25 mind u! its damn strong alr la! haha anyw i like it wen its sunny tho, better than rainy n cold n glooomy.. just dont burn me please..

anyway im watching this chinese talkshow now about married couples and communication. please don ask me y haha i just am. and

i wanna get married! lead a married life! waha

ok ta for now

Happy Birthday Lianne :)

she's turned 20 today :)

we went for lunch at Magic Wok after our exams to do a mini celebration for her, the poor girl has an aching jaw (the pains of wisdom)

here are some pictures of my 2 lovely hk frens whom i see most of the time at school..

sarah and lianne.. my angels ;)

Lianne being surprised, hehe, bet she didnt expect it. the waitress was really sweet helping us get candles and all

happy!! haha, nice effect of the afternnon sun eh

the "cake"- more like ice cream.. its some coffee choc thingy, lianne liked it so it must be good :)

haha we had banana fritter for dessert! yummy n its huge!!!! hahahha

my first exam is tomorrow!! *panic*freakout*stress*and still procrastinating writing this* ugh helphelp.. gasp cant breath.

haha ok drama aside im damn scared la. though i know my first year is not counted i jus have to pass but wat if i cant pass? i don wanna retake! it costs fucking 60 pounds which is 180 sgd just to retake 1 ppr! so not worth it moreover that means i cant enjoy my hols properly.. butbutbut

i havent been doin wat im supposed to do! im not even doin the last min study im supposed to be doing now! shite. i told lynn last night that i would start today and i promise i will. haha jus typing this makes my heart pump faster so maybe wen i have enough stress in me it'll lead me to memorise my evolution of behaviour shite. anyway it's funny cos last night i went to bed at abt 4-5am (my lifestyle since 1 week ago, i hope i can wake up tmr) while watching hk drama and then i was expecting myself to wake up at abt 2pm and then feel stressed yet fully refreshed to study like fuck till dinner time (5.15-6pm) then cont a bit n go to sleep early. BUT for some reason or another i woke up at 1030am! but the wierd thing was i thot that wen i looked at my clock sometime ago, it had said 1.20pm and i thot id sleep in till abt 2pm as planned. i took a double take ok wen i saw 1030am ok. damn funny then while lying in bed i suddenly became awake! my mind started whirring and i was damn scared la! hahahah

did i sleep thru one whole day? is it tue now and i have jus missed my exam (9.15-10.15am). actually up till now i m still afraid that it is tuesday. but i don think so cos i still feel sleepy and i checked my hp- no missed calls. if i had slept thru dinner, kat n dev wld call n wonder wat hapened to me. if i had missed the exam sara n lianne wld be trying to get me too. so for now im safe. phew. im subconsciously stressed. im trying to get myself more stressed so id jus sit in my chair n do efficient memorising of shit for tmr.

ok ta for now till i feel i need to blog again (which shld be soon, cos the stress has died down n i might procrastinate and write another post too sooon, waha)

hehe,

its been a long time since ive put some photos up n since ive finally re-dowmloaded hello its working!! whoot. kat, dev n i decided to go for an evening walk and here are the photos :):):) enjoy the walk with me. :)

guess wat this is? wahah looks familiar?? whee..

another one to whet ur appetite :) clearer?

ok this is wat it really is, the eye hole to kats room. as usual im waiting for the missus who needs to take a pee everytime she leaves for a walk

finally kat comes out of a messy room! shes too ashamed to let me enter!! waha ive seen it. shes a scruff truely :)

fuschia (ok i dunno how to spell this)!! hot pink flowers!!!!

ok a duck- it flies!! haha i was shocked sometime back wen i realised these things fly high n fast! haha i wanna eat peking duck!!!

a tour of flowers n more flowers!! haha they were about to smileeee *cheeese*

*Purpleee!!! so pweeettyy!!

orange!! they match my slippers!! haha ill show u later :)

this is jus one of many more flower pictures! be warned! haha they r too pretttyyy!! i can resist not taking pics of them!!

hmm not flower i think..

we made it up the hill, the beginning of the walk..

a house, like duh but pretty!! we saw more houses later on they r so cute!!! so homely.. sigh

model kat: haha this is jus the path we take to the Green Circle Route.. devi says: "y so ulu ulu one?" -now kat has learnt another word to add to her singlish voacb

walk walk walk, really fun n exciting!!! haha

on our left, we saw this opening.. hmm lets go see where it leads to!

wow!!

wat we saw

yea it was a cloudy day, and mind u this was abt 8 plus..

kat trying to look cute n provocative haha, i was supposed to take on too but haha!! too bad

i like! first its a bmw second its such a coooool colour! unique! i nv liked orange but i wouldnt mind this beauty!!!

another bmw, but nah.. too common hehe

we were a lil lost but we found our way back, this en route back

sigh, they all look too perfect to be real. it kinda looks plasticy eh but no! its real! well living in the tropics n city-like singapore its easy to be taken in by this!! pweeetty

more flowers!

walkwalk walkin back..

devi. im supposed to say shes taking a public shit! hahahha

i like to take trees in pairs, i somehow feel as if they r old time lovers :) awww...

i like this pic! cos u can see me taking it! artistic eh! hahaha and its so nice framed byt the ferns :)

a creek. stream. watever- pretty

oops blurred lovelies.. but still orange n purple, the wonders of natures colour match! nobody would wear that match but nature knows no boundaries! i think ive got my Wunderful clothes/colour match skills fm mother nature, don u think? i learn fm the best :)

in an attempt to show that my orane slippers match the orange flowers! i know- ah pek kong

more lovelies! its so vibrant n oh so red n oh my can u feel the heat n the passion?? ooooh

this one's jus white n pure or "pewer" haha

more flowers n penn court. like kat says, we're gonna miss this next year, sob sob

a glimpse of our hall. we've finally made it back. we took about 1 hour! a mix of the old n the new. on the left is the main Lopes Hall building- we go there for dinners. up ahead is our Penn COurt!

her second.. "its still blurrr"

devi's 1st attempt to take a pic of us under the mini tree!

more exotic lookin flowers- at least i think so- AND this is at our place! *beams proudly* heh

i like these wild red roses. ooh with the thorns yeah, some bloke shld pluck these n give them to me at dinner.. haha ill blush n be his!! whooooosh! hahah

her third attempt- its still bluur-haha forget it

its relative/ cousin/ sister the yellow n pink mix

waiting for devi to bring something for kat.. haha ooh provocative